Giving up.

Why is it so easy for people to give up? Why do I see them just going with what people tell them and just give up on their dreams? No one really controls you future but you. The future might be unwritten, but at least we can try to make it a great future. When people tell you something that brings you down, that destroys who you are, that makes you feel worthless, look up at the sky, take a deep breath, and remember you are alive for a reason. You haven't given up in the past, why would you stop now when more and more people try to bring you down. God gives you what he believes you can handle. All you have to do is ask for the strength to handle it. Giving up? Why? Why would you let the people who tell you you can't do something, you aren't smart, you look horrible, you are a nobody into your life? Why do you accept it? Live your life for you. You aren't doing things to please people. "Live life without regrets" -Danny Cartagena. If you believe giving up is the solution, you have let people control your life. You are smart, beautiful, handsome, athletic, etc. Whatever you believe you are, you are. You might not be the best at it, but you are you. You are unique. No one can change that. Don't give up.

Loosing you.

A request.


How come everything I do seems to push you away? Why can't you see that you mean so much to me? I've been asked these questions to myself sometimes. And I hear people mumble them as they just stare into space. What should you do? You don't want to lose your significant other. You must try talking to them, making them your number one priority. But if they ask to get rid of your friends, then don't. Friends are worth more than that significant other. If that's not the case, then just talk to them. Make them your number one priority, even if it means to get rid of the crush you might have on someone else. That person means a lot to you. You can't give up on that person if they mean so much to you. Try not to screw that up. Even if it means hurting others around you, you first have to make that significant other your number one priority.

I want to just lay there.....

To be in bed, where I dont have to deal with the reality of my life. I see that I am not perfect, there's got to be something wrong with me. Why? Why does life have to torture me? All I want is to be happy. I can't. I mean I can't even keep a girl long enough for her to truly trust me with everything. All I get is pain and sorrow. Just once I want to wake up one day next to that person who can make me smile. If it means I have to wait til death, then so be it. But don't torture me. Don't tease me with love. Don't tease me with this feeling. If I deserve to be happy, then give it to me. I have put on this fake of a smile, this fake happiness to get people to stop worrying. But when is it my turn to be truly happy. I guess I have to wait. Wait in bed. I want to just lay there.........

What do you want?

Whenever you want something, you do everything in your power to get it. Whether it be lying, cheating, or actually working hard for it. But the question is, is that truly what you want? Or is it something that just seems like you want it? Like in my previous post, writing can help solve answers. How? Well it depends on how you write. If you write straight from the heart, without thinking, then that is something you truly want. The only question you have to feel in your heart is, what do you want?

Reality

Reality has a way of telling you how miserable you are in life. All when you think that you can move on and be able to concentrate....reality tends to make you remember everything you have gone through. All you have to do is stand strong and remember to always be yourself. If you aren't yourself, you are just lying to yourself. Life has a way of making you miserable, confusing you on certain matters. Write what you are feeling. That is the only way you know what you need to do, and know the real you. I write. But I don't because I need to know the real me. I write because I want to clear my mind. To speak the truth. To help others who are in the same situation as me. Reality has a way of kicking your butt, but just stay who you are. You'll survive

Honesty.

When people say that they tell you the truth, that all they say isn't a lie, some people are lying. To tell the truth it is what you feel in your heart. Guilt. Love. Hate. Happiness. All of it is in your heart. Most people have to think when they speak. Don't think. Just speak. Because speaking from the heart is where the truth really is. What if someone you know is dating, and tells you they still have feelings for you? You start to relive and start feeling those feelings again. But whatever you do, don't act on it. You can't be that "other guy" or the reason why you ruin a relationship. You just have to take life as it is. But what about if you have feelings for someone, and they friendzone you? Well, you can't change how someone feels, even if it hurts you. Even if you just want to hold them, be that perfect guy. What if history is right behind you? A close ex that you recently lost? You just have to take life as it is.All the pain. All the memories. You wont't heal fast, even if he/she did. Honesty is a tough thing. My mind has nothing to do with honesty. Only my heart.

Life...

...is full of misery. The reason this is is because people hope to much. That when someone says, "We can still be friends," are just lying. Everyone knows how awkward it can be when something happens to people who are so close to each other. There are those who do try. That try their best to do whatever it is in their power to make things better. To make things less awkward. But it is impossible to deny the fact. I am over my head. Everyone was waiting for that one moment to turn away, run, even when I am on the ground fighting for my life. I can't say this to people I know. I can't. Because this lets them in to who I really am. Who I am as a person. I've been hurt long enough. But I can't stop. I hope that the next person I meet is different. That I don't get hurt. All I can do is pick up by beaten up, bruised up, cut up, shy, afraid of trusting heart and hope that whoever I give it to next, will take better care of it....